Another year is about to start but this time it seems like I’m doing it without you.
For a long time it was so clear to me that this was the right decision, so I don’t understand why all of a sudden I’m not alright with it. I think I need to remember that a girl is just a girl, that’s all. So many will come in and out of our lives so there’s no reason to hold on to one that’s trying to leave. I’ve always operated under the assumption that the people that come into my life could grow to be someone truly important to me, so when one starts to slip away it really affects me. It’s the whole idea of building this grand image of something in your head only to be disappointed that reality isn’t what you thought it would be.
I understand it doesn’t have to be so cut and dry, lovers or nothing, but I just need to remove myself from the situation so I can see that this is what it has to be. It’s time to focus on this new year because it is going to be a big one.
Before you ever try any drug you’ll almost always have a group of people telling you it’s not a big deal, giving you testimonials on how they’ve done it and turned out fine but thing is, you’re not them. I respect people’s choice to do whatever they want and consume whatever they want, but this is all just my view on this.
People validating the choice to try a drug with the idea that nothing has happened to them isn’t exactly a bulletproof reason. I think people forget the simple idea that everyone’s body is different from one another, so therefore the same thing can affect people in different ways. Put it this way, there are people who will have one glass of wine and be plastered while others can empty a bottle and feel nothing but a buzz. Now translate that to a substance that does more than just make you all giddy, the whole notion that because someone else did it and was ok, ergo you’ll be ok isn’t really all that true.
Of course this isn’t to say that drugs=death, but a way to understand that everyone’s experience is different. People try these things for a number of reasons but if you’re thinking about doing it because you’re bored looking for something “fun and exciting” to do, I assure you this world is filled with plenty of other things to explore and excite you.